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LISTEN UP!!!!!

chaosxangel — 2008-02-12T17:11:00Z

im letting a friend take over this buzznet account, as for me u ask? my secret ppl on my list already know whtas going on as for the rest of u....been nice knowing u....be nice to my new friend!!! or i come find u!!!

someone

chaosxangel — 2008-02-12T10:10:00Z

talk to me, make me a sign something im feeling down alot and freaking bored.....fix it?

haha omg

chaosxangel — 2008-02-09T17:39:00Z

theres a mouse in my closet in my room lol hes small brown and fat with a tan tail....im gonna catch the butthead lol

About bil and tom (read from bottom to the top)

chaosxangel — 2008-02-09T11:18:00Z

----------------- Original Message -----------------
From: Tokio Designs [3.7k] 2/18/2008
Date: Feb 8, 2008 5:46 PM

yeah same all these haters need to take a long wlak on a short peir
----------------- Original Message -----------------
From: Vicki <3 Tokio Hotel
Date: Feb 8, 2008 6:38 PM

wow. well, if i didnt like a band i wouldnt do that shit. it is wrong and i would have to think about how i would feel if it was done to me about one of my fave bands.

----------------- Original Message -----------------
From: Tokio Designs [3.7k] 2/18/2008
Date: Feb 8, 2008 5:35 PM

i track the IP adress online [but i'm sure how accuate it was] it traces back to Athens insitude of technology in greece apparently

----------------- Original Message -----------------
From: Vicki <3 Tokio Hotel
Date: Feb 8, 2008 3:15 PM

its really stupid. they are dumb asses who are just jealous.

----------------- Original Message -----------------
From: Tokio Designs [3.7k] 2/18/2008
Date: Feb 8, 2008 3:32 PM

yeah like they do this shit everytime tokio hotel gets reconized in a new country it seems like

----------------- Original Message -----------------
From: Vicki <3 Tokio Hotel
Date: Feb 8, 2008 1:28 PM

i swear that i hate when people do shit like that. its so wrong and rude. they need to find something better to waste their time doing.

----------------- Original Message -----------------
From: Tokio Designs [3.7k] 2/18/2008
Date: Feb 8, 2008 3:19 PM

i know they just have no lifes
and it was confirmed today that they will be playing a concert in norway

----------------- Original Message -----------------
From: Vicki <3 Tokio Hotel
Date: Feb 8, 2008 1:13 PM

really. thats stupid then if they expect people to believe it after seeing that.

----------------- Original Message -----------------
From: Tokio Designs [3.7k] 2/18/2008
Date: Feb 8, 2008 3:03 PM

and it was posted it before they were at the golden camera awards
----------------- Original Message -----------------
From: Vicki <3 Tokio Hotel
Date: Feb 8, 2008 12:58 PM

yeah i read somewhere. i dont know where. but they said that no bill and tom are not dead. that it is just a rumor. i figured if they were we would have heard from the other members of the band of something.

----------------- Original Message -----------------
From: Tokio Designs [3.7k] 2/18/2008
Date: Feb 8, 2008 2:12 PM

i know I have to delete the bulliten
i looked around that site and it looks fake

----------------- Original Message -----------------
From: Vicki <3 Tokio Hotel
Date: Feb 8, 2008 12:09 PM

i dont think its true. it cant be.

----------------- Bulletin Message -----------------
From: Tokio Designs [3.7k] 2/18/2008
Date: Feb 8, 2008 2:01 PM

http://147.102.135.118/cnn.html

NO NO NO PLEASE BE FAKE PLEASE BE JUST A RUMOR!!!NO NO NO

i think its a fake someone tracked it down it was some intitstute in a country jealous of tokio hotel!

have u also noticed all the links under that site do not work, if it was real they would work so not real people!

I've Decided....

chaosxangel — 2008-02-08T10:27:00Z

to stop writing my fan fiction all together no one but (desperatefallenangel) even reads it anymore its pointless to write it cause no one else cares to give a shit to read it, so thank u ana, this has happened for the last 2 fan fics ive done bairely anyone reads them but her so i dont see the damn point anymore to write any..as for the rest of u haha u dont get a thanks!

idc if u think im mean!

Add Me On These Please!

chaosxangel — 2008-01-30T17:54:00Z

Dont ask if u can add me if im posting this u oviously can, JUST ADD ME ON THESE!

Yahoo> missy_loves_music@yahoo.com

Msn> missy_loves_music@hotmail.com

Aim> missylovesmcr

Myspace> http://www.myspace.com/323 813012

Vampirefreaks> musiclover87

Teen Depression/Suicide

chaosxangel — 2008-01-28T08:35:00Z

This is my biology project and i really want u to read this and understand it and use it to help someone or urself.

There are many types of depression:
-Bipolar Disorder (Manic-Depressive Illness)
-Dysthymia (Chronic Depression)
-Seasonal Affective Disorder

Bi-Polar Disorder
Bipolar disorder involves an alternating pattern of emotion highs and lows. The severity of this condition ranges from mild to severe.
Symptoms:
-Feelings of extreme happiness, optimism and inflated self esteem alternating with extreme feelings of sadness, anxiety or guilt or hopelessness.
-Rapid Speech, racing thoughts, agitation and increased physical activity.
-Poor judgment, and reckless behavior.
-Trouble sleeping.
-Difficult concentrating/easily distracted.
-Changes in sleep patters and eating habits.
-Fatigue and loss of interest in daily activities.
-Persistent thoughts of suicide.
-Extreme irritability.

Dysthymia
It lasts for at least 2 years. With this type of depression victims are usually able to function in life without being hospitalized.
Symptoms:
-Poor school/work performance.
-Withdrawal from social activities.
-Shyness.
-Extreme irritability/hostility.
-Problems with family and friends.
-Irregularity of body processes.
-Sleep irregularity.
-Parents who have major depression.

Seasonal Affective Disorder
It affects people around the approach of winter, when the days are getting shorter. This type of depression is extreme instance of the “winter blues” that is mitigates during the spring and summer.
Symptoms:
-Symptoms of depression occurring regularly during the fall or winter months ( changes in sleeping or eating habits, reoccurring, sad or anxious or “empty” moods; loss of interest in activities once enjoyed.
-Relief of depression in spring and summer months.
-Symptoms occurring in past two years with no non-seasonal depression periods.
-Craving sugary or starchy foods.

Warning Signs
-Rage, uncontrolled anger, seeking revenge.
-Acting reckless or engaging in risky activities, seemingly without thinking.
-Increased alcohol or drug abuse.
-Hopelessness.
-Withdrawing from friends, family and society.
-Anxiety, agitation, unable to sleep or sleeping all the time.
-Dramatic mood changes.
-No reason for living, no sense of purpose in life.

What To Do
Be direct. Talk openly and directly about suicide, use the word so they hear the severity of it don’t be afraid to use the word remind them suicide is a permanent solution to a temporary solution.
Be willing to listen. Allow expression of feelings. Accept the feelings.
Be non judgmental. Don’t debate whether suicide is right or wrong, or whether feelings are good or bad. Don’t lecture on the value of life.
Get involved. Become available. Show interest and support.
Don’t dare him/her to do it.
Don’t act shocked. This will put distance between you.
Don’t be sworn to secrecy. Seek support.
Offer hope that alternatives are available but do not offer glib reassurance.
Take action. Remove guns, pills, ropes, anything harmful.
Get from from persons or agencies specializing in crisis intervention and suicide prevention.

Ways To Help
As a friend:
-Show you care, Talk to them - try saying “I’m concerned”, “how can I help?”.
-Ask questions don’t be afraid to ask.
-Be direct in a caring way non-confrontational way “are you thinking about suicide?”, “how long have you had these thoughts?”.
-Let them express there feelings.
-Don’t say “you shouldn’t feel that way” or “you don’t know how lucky you are”.
-Give him/her a hotline number.
-Offer to call him/her.
If you believe suicide is probable:
-Stay with the person.
-Call for help.
-Let adults know.
-Don’t worry about being “disloyal.” you are really helping a friend.

There Feelings
Cant stop the pain.
Cant think clearly.
Cant make decisions.
Cant see any way out.
Cant sleep, eat or work.
Cant get out of depression.
Cant make the sadness go away.
Cant see a future without pain.
Cant see themselves as worthwhile.
Cant get someone's attention.
Cant seem to get control.

Teen Suicide/Depression Myths
Myth: We’re good people. Mental illness doesn’t happen to my family.
Fact: One in four families is affected by a mental health problem.

Myth: It’s not depression, your just going through a phase.
Fact: Nineteen million adults in the united states suffer from some form of depression every year.

Myth: Insurance doesn’t need to cover mental health, its not a big problem.
Fact: Fifty-four million Americans are affected by mental illness each year, regardless of ethnicity, sex or social economic class.

Myth: Mental illness is a personal concern not a business concern.
Fact: Depression is the leading cause of disability in the united states over back problems, heart disease and liver failure.

Myth: Talking about depression only make it worse.
Fact: Talking through feelings may help a friend recognize the need for professional help. By showing friendship and concern and giving uncritical support, you can encourage a friend to talk to a trusted adult about treatment.

Statistics
-Suicide takes the lives of more then 30,000 americans every year.
-Each year 5,000 young people ages 15-24-years old.
-Suicide is the 2nd leading cause of death among college students.
-60% of high school boys have thought about suicide, 9% have attempted suicide.
-Males are 4 times more likely to die from a suicide attempt then are females because they tend to use more effective methods.
-Firearms are the leading method in successful suicides (57%) suffocation -is the second leading method, 19%, closely followed by poisoning 17%/.
-For every successful suicide there are 50-100 attempted suicides.
-Since 1970, teen/youth suicide rates have tripled.
-More adolescents die from suicide then from cancer,heart disease,AIDS,birth defects,stroke,pneumonia,influenza, and chronic lung disease combined.
-80-90% of people with depression can be treated.
-9 out of every 10 suicides are preventable.

Forever Or Never Part 3

chaosxangel — 2008-01-25T13:26:00Z

ok a slight change in the story i like luminor alot more then strify now so strify is out and and luminor is in so luminor is now strify ok? ok here it goes!

We got to the studio luminor got out and opened the door as he took my hand then we stepped aside as yu took ana's hand and they led us up the stairs to the studio where they were recording a new song called "crush" (made it up not real) they were singing about how they were in love with these girls but they didnt know me and ana were talking she said "missy....um...this song sounds like those girls are us" i laughed "ana those girls ARE us, and as if we cant deny it you know i have a thing for luminor and you for yu" she shook her head yes smiling we had known the guys for a few days but we felt like we knew them all our lives besides them being our favorite band they got done talked to there manager then came over and luminor said 'we just asked him for a week so we could have some time to relax with you guys" i was like "wait, relax with us....how, where?" yu laughed "were gonna go to our house the other guys are with there gf's and will be gone all week so it can be just us for, thats if its ok with you both?" we shook our head yes eagerly yu asked ana if he could talk to her privately for a few min and luminor asked me to do the same i bairely got to turn around before luminor pulled me close into a deep kiss, i didnt know what to do i just melted he stopped backed up "omg im so sorry i just couldnt help it...sorry" i smiled "its ok, i wanted u too and i liked it"
He leaned in and gave me another kiss this time more deep i just kissed him back then he pulled me into a warm hug i looked over to see ana and yu in the corner making out i smiled and just enjoyed luminors hug then he whispered "are you my girlfriend?" i looked at him shook my head yes he smiled then linked his hand with mine as we walked to ana and yu who were holding hands also walking towards us smiling, i knew they had done the same as us i knew ana was happy yu was her dream man and luminor was mine, yu invited ana to the movies and to dinner while luminor asked me to go to there house to relax and watch a movie he had we both agreed to it ana and yu left for dinner he was taking to the "liebe" restaurant that was its name "liebe" (love) i hugged ana told her behave then me and luminor left for his house, i just held onto luminors hand the whole ride kissing and laughing the whole way he said "to be honest your the first girlfriend i have ever had that i really like and just wanna be with all the time, your awesome.
Me and luminor got to his house and we got out then went in, he went to the bathroom but showed me the movies first so i could pick one out and have it ready for when he got out i looked and i picked out "alvin and the chipmunks" he got out we laid down on the couch with his arms around me we were laughing alot and holding each other kissing *2hrs later* ana and yu came in laughing and went directly upstairs, luminor laughed "well you know whats happenin with them too haha" i laughed "yeah may get noisy"we just fell asleep on the couch holding each other as the movie and tv played over and over all night cause we forgot to shut it off we fell asleep b4 we wanted to move to shut it off.

Happy 3 Month Anniversary Giada!

chaosxangel — 2008-01-25T11:01:00Z

I Wrote This For You

I would tell you today
That you are the one that fills my life
Whose smile I cannot wait to see
Whose arms I long to have wrapped around me
Whose lips I live to kiss
Softly, passionately, in every way.

I would want you to know
That you make my heart skip a beat
You fill my soul with contentment
You brighten my dark skies
You fill my days and nights
With stars, hopes, and cascading dreams.

I would want you to see
How beautiful the world looks with your eyes through mine
Your eyes light up the sky
Your touch paints the heavens
Your kiss creates amazing rainbows
Of beauty, sunshine, and life.

I would want you to understand
That I have always loved you
Before I knew there was you
Before our eyes ever met
Before I found in you
Happiness, completeness, and passion.

If there were no tomorrow
I would tell you
That you are the greatest gift in my life
Whose love I cherish above all else
You sustain me with
Your laughter, love, and friendship
Before there was no knowing
I'd tell you I love you infinitely, without boundaries, and beyond time.

I LOVE YOU GIADA <3

My Biology Class Assignment

chaosxangel — 2008-01-23T13:31:00Z

i have to do "teen suicide/depression" and its quiet common i read upon it and its worse then i thought, its kinda scary and personal cause i tried a few suicide attempts and dont worry im not going to ever again im fine now! and think about it now and then i read stories about families who lost people who had done suicide and its scary it kinda almost made me cry in class, its kinda touchy cause it felt like i was in it, its making me really think about my life and my family, so im oging so share some of this info with u, maybe it could help u or help u save someones life.

Warning Signs:

Rage, uncontrolled anger, seeking revenge.
Acting reckless or engaging in risky activities, seemingly without thinking.
Increased alcohol or drug abuse.
Hopelessness.
Withdrawing from friends, family and society.
Anxiety, agitation, unable to sleep or sleeping all the time.
Dramatic mood changes
No reason for living, no sense of purpose in life.

What To Do:

Be direct. Talk openly and directly about suicide.
Be willing to listen. Allow expression of feelings. Accept the feelings.
Be non judgmental. Don’t debate whether suicide is right or wrong, or whether feelings are good or bad. Don’t lecture on the value of life.
Get involved. Become available. Show interest and support.
Don’t dare him/her to do it.
Don’t act shocked. This will put distance between you.
Don’t be sworn to secrecy. Seek support.
Offer hope that alternatives are available but do not offer glib reassurance.
Take action. Remove guns, pills, ropes, anything harmful.
Get from from persons or agencies specializing in crisis intervention and suicide prevention.

There Feelings:

Cant stop the pain.
Cant think clearly.
Cant make decisions.
Cant see any way out.
Cant sleep, eat or work.
Cant get out of depression.
Cant make the sadness go away.
Cant see a future without pain.
Cant see themselves as worthwhile.
Cant get someones attention.
Cant seem to get control.

Although suicide is relatively rare among children, the rate of suicide attempts and suicide deaths increases tremendously during adolescence. Suicide is the third-leading cause of death for 15- to 24-year-olds, according to the Centers for Disease Control and Prevention (CDC), surpassed only by accidents and homicide.

The risk of suicide increases dramatically when kids and teens have access to firearms at home, and nearly 60% of all suicides in the United States are committed with a gun. That's why any gun in your home should be unloaded, locked, and kept out of the reach of children and teens. Ammunition should be stored and locked apart from the gun, and the keys for both should be kept in a different area from where you store your household keys. Always keep the keys to any firearms out of the reach of children and adolescents.

It's important to understand how suicide rates are different for boys and girls. Girls think about and attempt suicide about twice as often as boys, and girls tend to attempt suicide by overdosing on drugs or cutting themselves. Boys die by suicide about four times as much as girls, perhaps because they tend to use more lethal methods, such as firearms, hanging, or jumping from heights.